I've been very discouraged lately with our adoption and the waiting without answers. I'll be very honest with you. I have wanted to write some pretty glum posts about my frustration, even anger, and my desperation to hear something about this little girl who still waits for a home; but God has reminded me several times in the last couple weeks that His promises are true. I keep remembering the verse "The steps of a righteous man are ordered of the Lord". I went to look up this verse in a different translation and I was amazed at a verse I found. Proverbs 20:24 New Living Translation says: "The Lord directs our steps, so why try to understand everything along the way?" Wow...that has been me. Struggling to understand why that little girl doesn't have a home yet. Trying to figure out if we made a mistake in the agency we decided to do go with for this adoption. Worrying that we should be doing something more.
But I know in my heart that we are where God wants us to be. We prayed about what direction to take. We have asked God for wisdom every step of the way, from the beginning starting with where to adopt from and which agency to use. We obeyed God's call to start the adoption process almost two years ago. I can only stand on God's promise that HE KNOWS and that we are in His will and plan. I cannot begin to understand why we have to wait this long, and I may never know, but I need to trust God that He is in perfect control of this adoption and that we are in His will and plan.
This is a concept we need to learn in every area of our lives. If we are truly, actively following God's voice and obeying His plan for our lives, we need to trust Him even if we don't understand. We need to trust that God has us exactly where He wants us to be and put behind us our struggle with worry, doubt and frustration. If I am in God's plan for my life, then He has everything under control!
While I know it will not be easy in the days ahead, I pray that God will give me the strength to trust Him, the wisdom to know if we are to walk a different direction, and peace that we are in the will of God for our lives. I am so thankful that HE directs every step and we can have PEACE if we walk in obedience to Him!!
